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We must lose our minds to come to our senses.
“The map is not the territory.” -R.A.W.
“What map? What are you talking about you serene old fruitcake. Just cause you’re old and happy doesn’t mean you don’t have to make sense anymore.” -Me
Might doesn’t make right, but it does make authority like no bodies business.
I got all the parts on wednesday for my new computer. Everything worked first time out of the box. I had the machine put together and OSed in 3 hours. It is good and I’m proud that i slapped the whole thing together so quickly. Downside is that I then had to leave for PA so it is just sitting at the apartment doing nothing. I also need to get an HDMI cable for it. Best Buy is cool with selling me one but they want 50 freakin dollars which is outrageous. It can’t actually address all the memory. : )
I want to get back to it and really break it in. It also needs a name. I was thinking Elderbeast.
Grandpa Snyder died last night about 12:30ish.
My Grandfather is getting close to dying. It’s sad. It’s also good. He’s been sick for a while and when grandmother Snyder died it took a lot out of him. He has been ready to go for a long time. So I’m glad for him and sad that he is on his way out.
Death is a part of life, fearing death is pointless, but you can miss your friends and family.
I wonder if the old lie told to kids doesn’t hold a good philosphy. When people get old they leave to a far away place that we can believe is really nice and one day we can go visit them.
I am putting my first computer together from scratch. Bought the mobo, processor, and everything. Everything ought to get here next week. I hope that everything arrives okay and that it all works. I did a couple days of research and modification to make sure that I got everything I want and that it should all work together. I coughed up the money and all the parts are on their way. All I have to do now is wait.
I made the comparison that it’s like waiting for a kid to be born. I’m excited, anxious, and impatient. I’m uncertain if everything is gonna turn out all right. This could be totally awesome or an expensive mistake.
I’ve spent a bunch of money but far less than I would have had I bought the same type of a computer from a store. Given that my roommate is leaving and taking his tv with him I got a hdtv/monitor. And given that I’m gonna lose my laptop when i move to the new postion I’m in need of a new awesome machine.
I’ll still be out a laptop which sucks but maybe I can get a cheap one. maybe one of those triple e pc’s.
I’m concerned the parts won’t work when they get here and I’ll have to work hard to get the parts I need and then find out they don’t work together and am gonna have to send it back and have nothing.
I’m excited to pass this rite in computer dorkery. It’s kinda suprising that I got to 30 with 12 years of tech experience and I haven’t tried this already. I mean I’ve done similar things before but I’ve never bought a case, mobo, processor, power supply or similar. I’ve taken multiple Dells, weeded out the bad parts and put together a good computer out of the WLO. This is different. I’m on my own here.
My good friend Chris is getting married. It feels oddly surreal. Not that I think him incapable of finding someone for whom he would like to marry or that I don’t think he is the marrying type. It’s just never occured to me. I think I would have more of an oppinion here if I had ever met this person. I smell a road trip. Prepare for the arrival of the Tom.
After the horrible debockle of this weekend I’ve come to a greater appreciation for how happy I was at my old job and so I have re-quit. I’ll be moving back to Karen’s Team. Karen’s okay with it, Walt is okay with it, Kelly is okay with it, Erin is okay with it and I’ll be happy again so I’ll be okay with it. I won’t even miss the money. Every time I start to miss the money I’ll remember the stress I no longer have and the ability to relax that I’ve regained and everything will be okay.
The moral of this story is that just because people think the bigger job with the more money and increased responsibilities is what you ought to do doesn’t mean they are right. Just because they are trapped in a cycle of pointless careerism and are striving to do more doesn’t mean I should also. Happiness and personal well being is more important to me than following the societal pressures to do stuff that causes me stress and makes me contemplate killing myself.
Yeah I thought about it in a sort of hap-hazard way. The stress is that bad. Don’t worry. I’m okay now. I’m taking care of the problem and will be alright.
Now I will hopefully have enough energy after work to get in better shape. Maybe start dating again. Daydream. Write. Make Art.
Who Knows. The World is my oyster and I’m starting to get hungry again.
My Boss talked me down off the ledge. He’s going to let me change my job around so I don’t go crazy … er. More insane. On the upside I’m not a quiter and I’ll keep getting the awesome money and I get to rework my job so I feel better. I’m taking the weekend off and jetting to Indy for GenCon.
Hail Eris
Well I sorta quit today.
I called up my old boss and asked if she had a job opening. She did and told me to talk to my current boss and see if it was cool if I changed jobs. I talked to my current boss and told him I’m fried and that my old boss had a job opening. He told me that he’ll need to work out some sort of deal with the old boss for support coverage but that he knew I’d been struggling to keep it together. He told me he hated to see me go and thanked me for my work. It is pretty much a sure thing that I’ll get a job with my old boss.
The pay loss is gonna be pretty bad. I also feel kinda crappy about not being able to cope but I think I was being asked to work to hard; not only for the pay but just personally.
However I’ll only be doing 1 job for the money instead of 5. If you look at it by percentage then this is awesome. Mostly the reason I’m doing this is that I won’t have the stress or the demand. 40 hours, 8 to 5 and not a bit more. The money is great for the job and the work is very easy. I’m depressed but i’ll get over that and the first month of good sleep and I’ll be great.
Hail Eris
The housing market was in a slump until recently when the biggest mortgage financiers reported recorded losses and the market when from a slump to a flaming shit spiral. Freddie Mac and Fannie Mae; yes that is the name of the two largest governmentally backed mortgage companies, are actually worth negative money. That means that if you sold everything they own off and fired everyone you’d still owe their creditors 5.8 billion dollars.
This along with the energy fucking nightmare ( crisis not being sufficient) suggests that the US is facing not just troubled times but a depression so massive that the the Great One we had 80 years ago will seem reasonable.
Greed and corruption plus short sighted good intentions and incompetent fumble fingered leadership is going to jettison our grand country into 3rd world status ripe for take over. Buy guns, ammo, and food folks. We are in for a heck of a ride. Especially if a majority of Americans don’t have skills that are independent on technology.
I’m glad I know how to raise and butcher animals. I need to learn some basic farming.
This would be the entropy side of being a discordian. The part that involves laughing as the system breaks down. Giggling as the law and order freaks watch the tatters of their civilization shred themselves because of mismanagement and abuse. Playing while everyone who can’t change and adapt cries “why me” and doesn’t do anything. Smiling a mirthless self-satisfied smile as balance reassert itself. We are coming to a time when we have to change, adapt and overcome our ignorances and pride.
Hail Eris!